A Beautiful Mess

by Denise Barbarita

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Brand new CD from Denise Barbarita, featuring her band, The Morning Papers. Reviews coming soon!

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released November 19, 2010

Tracking Engineer: Robert L Smith
Add'l Recording/Mix Engineer: Denise Barbarita
Mastering Engineer: Alan Silverman
Assistant Engineers: Ariosto Arias, Jon Silverman, Jon Altschuler

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Track Name: 3. Far From The Maddening Crowd
FAR FROM THE MADDENING CROWD

People Everywhere
Solitude is Rare

(I want to)
Run Away, Far away
Far Away from the Maddening Crowd

I Dream of Open Space
A Sunlight Drenched Escape

(I want to)
Run Away, Far Away
Far from the Thunder of Oncoming Trains


Run Away, Far Away
Go Out, Into the Big Sky
There I’ll Find
A Peace of Mind
Miles of Quiet


This Body Weighs Me Down
Firmly Planted to the Ground

(I want to)
Run Away, Far Away
Far Away from the Maddening Crowd

Bend My Will To Be
A Songbird Gliding Free

(I want to)
Fly Away, Far Away
Fly from the Clamour of Urban Malaise
Track Name: 1. K sera (Intro)
K sera sera the world keeps spinning
K sera sera we all move on
If today has got you down just turn around
(repeat)
© 2009, Denise Barbarita/MyShyTune Music Publishing/BMI
Track Name: 2. Poisonwood Tree
POISONWOOD TREE

Safe in the shade of my poisonwood tree
Shaking and seething in disbelief
My sunken eyes peek through the leaves
How have I found comfort and solace in this,.. pain

Went from 1st born favorite to latch key
I’m being played like a puzzle piece
Forced in a corner then brushed off to the side
Cuz I don’t fit,.. in

There’s no room for grey it’s now black and white
It’s a one sided game I’m either with you or not
You see me as something that needs to be fixed
Cuz I don’t fit,.. in

You look at me through drunken eyes
You don’t hear the cries from your wounded child
Covered in scabs and dirt from falling head first
Trying to fit,.. in

You taught me to think independently
So why be surprised by my questioning
You were the one who said I could do anything
If I tried
And I tried
So why can’t I fit in?
Why couldn’t I stop this?

I couldn’t stop this from happening

Safe in the shade of my poisonwood tree
Eating the same fruit that’s killing me
Hiding behind this fortress of guilt
Layers of fat under blistered skin
And I tried

I couldn’t stop this from happening

Forgive me


©2007 MyShyTune Music Publishing
Track Name: 5. I Don't Like You
I don’t Like You

I don’t like you, I won’t apologize
I don’t like you, it won’t come as a surprise

Yes sharing this secret, it makes me feel guilty
Cuz all I ever wanted was to love uncondition’ly
Pretending to give a shit makes me feel queasy
So now I think it’s time for some brutal honesty

(Chorus)

I thought I could revive my deepest desire
To reflect on your good points rather than the reviled
I tried to pretend that we could be friends
But the closest emotion I can get to is contempt

(chorus)

{breakdown}

I don’t like you, on this we can agree
If you don’t like me it will come as a relief

It’s true I find you shallow and way too verbose
Perhaps you find me caustic and a bit too precocious
Let’s drop all this pretense and dishonesty
You know You don’t like me, I don’t like you
No apologies are necessary


©2008 MyShyTune Music Publishing/BMI Words & Music by Denise Barbarita
Track Name: 6. It's Wot You Said
IT’S WHAT YOU SAID

don’t play dumb
you feed on insecurities
a vampire to my senses
insulting my integrity
always so coy
boy you’d better wake up
i’ve given up
you’re on your own

you’re falling down
i won’t go with you

it’s so easy
to be mr zero responsibility
it’s just always my fault
isn’t that what you said?

stand up strait
boy you’ve got a lot to learn
all you can do is take
you’re a slave to your misery
always so sure
well you’d better wake up
i’ve given up
you’re on your own


©1999 MyShyTune Music Publishing/Denise Barbarita/BMI
Track Name: 7. Do It Again
DO IT AGAIN

say the word
and i'll be right up
by that door
take two steps to
the sign marked "go"

and days
they run together
just like white paint
spread on a white wall

break my fall then...

say you will
i said just do it again
and take your time this time
i said just do it again

it's so real
and yes i'm still falling

seeing through you
like a waterglass
in the morning
just say i'll be better on my own

i crave
a change of season
maybe something blue
i can't see through

break my fall then...


© 1998 MyShyTune Music Publishing/Denise Barbarita/BMI
Track Name: 8. Truth Telling
Truth Telling

You can’t find the the right way
You can’t find the words to say
You’re lonely

You don’t want to create waves
And so you choose to hesitate
You stay
In the same place
Sad and lonely (never changing)

With Hope your heart stays open
Still filled with mixed emotion
Afraid to wake
Every day is the same
With Hope your heart stays open
Still filled with mixed emotion
Each day you wake you can’t escape
Break, Try to break away

You can’t seem to explain
You feel life’s a living grave
It’s left you craving

You don’t need to be ashamed
for feeling helpless and afraid
you say you’re
finally facing
truth embracing
letting go of
fear of changes

Don’t say it’s too late
A heart open to
Truth telling
Is the only way


(chorus)


©2008 MyShyTuneMusic
Words by Denise Barbarita/ Music by DB/JW
Track Name: 9. September Sun
September Sun

A summer made to make amends
(it came) and went
As I shuddered with a sigh

And with the yellow harvest moon
I bloomed
With insight

I never laughed so loud before then
I never danced with raw abandon
Before that day it was always me against the world
Then I stopped running
I just stopped running away
I found my home
In the warm September sun

Feels like I woke up from a dream
I can’t believe
When I hear echoes of past doubts in mind

I used to feel so out of place
But now
I’m fearless

I never laughed so loud before then
I never danced with raw abandon
Before that day it was always me against the world
Then I stopped running
I just stopped running away
I found my home
In the warm September sun

©2008 MyShyTune Music/Words & Music by Denise Barbarita
Track Name: 10. (Will You) Remember Me
Ballad of the lost soul

I’m on my knees
I crave release
Forgive me for
Any wrongs I’ve done

I take the lead
Unconsciously
Above the fold
Searching for my home

I’m a soul without a body
I’m a ship lost out at sea
And this voice sings of faded memories
I’m a soul without a body
I’m a ship lost out at sea
And I hope someone will remember me

Forgetful of
What it means to love
Is a life defined
By what’s left behind

Now out of sight
And out of mind
I choose to live
Where the sea meets sky

I’m a soul without a body
I’m a ship lost out at sea
And this voice sings of faded memories
I’m a soul without a body
I’m a ship lost out at sea
And I hope someone will remember me

©2008 MyshytuneMusic/BMI; Words by Denise Barbarita, music by Denise Barbarita & Francis MBappe
Track Name: 4. Suckers
Suckers

You’d sell insurance to the dead
You’ll selling moonbeams in a monogrammed case
You’d sell a pony with no legs
Go count your money and forget about it

(chorus)
You want yours now you gotta get yours now
And you don’t care who you hurt
You know you want it, you gotta get yours now
And you don’t care who gets burned
Cuz we’re all suckers anyway

You pray to God to make you rich
Expecting forgiveness as you rape and pillage
You don’t want you’re legacy to die
Singing songs of salvation while you torch the sky

Chorus

© 2006 MyShyTune Music Publishing/BMI, Words & Music by Denise Barbarita